Hello world, it’s me Chelsea.

Howdy.

This site is a collection of lists, thoughts, music, goals, and photos. I’m making no promises as to how interesting it will be, seeing as I am not the most interesting of people. But, if you’re reading this: Hello! I’m Chelsea and you’re awesome for reading this.

Life

Life is crazy. Sometimes I forget how to deal with it. I forget to laugh at myself.  I forget to feel anything other than the sadness that seems to consume my entire life. I have an amazing boyfriend who just wants me to feel better and to make me happy. It’s so hard to see him upset that he can’t “fix” anything.  I’m trying so hard just to be normal and happy and enjoy my life, but it’s so hard. Waking up in the morning and actually doing something feels like a mountain I can’t climb.  Sometimes I feel like the shell of a person.  I don’t feel much except just plain sad.  With everything my parents are going through, I feel like I have to be the strong one. I feel like I can’t show any emotion in front of them.  Every time I come home from seeing them, I cry like a baby. It’s not fair. I wish I could take away my dad’s pain. I wish I could make him happy again.   I wish I could just fix everything. It’s getting so hard not to cut. Well, hopefully I’ll write here soon again.. I don’t have anyone to talk to anymore so I’m sure I will.

Books I Want to Read

• Siddhartha- Hermann Hesse
• Impossible- Nancy Werlin
• Outside the Dog Museum- Jonathan Carroll
• The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo- Stieg Larson
• The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society- Mary Ann Shaffer/Annie Barrows
• Anna Karenina-Leo Tolstoy
• Interview with the Vampire- Anne Rice
• The Bean Trees- Barbara Kingslover
• Far From the Madding Crowd- Thomas Hardy
• Out of the Silent Planet- C.S. Lewis
• Whose Body?-Dorothy Sayers
• Count of Monty Cristo- Alexander Dumas
• Chocolat- Joanne Harris
• Eating Animals- Jonathan Safran Foer
• Guns, Germs, and Steel: The Fates of Human Societies- Jared M Diamond
• Crimes Against Logic-Jamie Whyte
• My Friend Leonard-James Frey
• The Razors Edge-W. Somerset Maugham
• As I Lay Dying- Falkner
• Anthropology of an American Girl-Hilary Thayer Hamann
• The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake-Aimee Bender
• The Passage- Justin Cronin

Songs I really hate

• Airplanes- B.O.B.
  • Can we pretend that you just STFU
• Baby- Justin Bieber
  • Seriously, this prepubescent Aaron Carter wannabe makes me want to punch babies.
• Wonderwall-Oasis
  • How many times are people going to cry to this song or learn it to get laid? Over played, much.
• Love Story/You belong with me/every song by- Taylor Swift
  • Taylor Swift, I’m sick of hearing you every time I listen to the radio, which isn’t very often, but still. All your songs sound the same. How many times are you going to sing about crying over a boy? I don’t care about the tears on your guitar. Grow up.
• American Idiot- Green Day
  • Dear Green Day, I liked you better when you sang about getting high all day in the 90′s.
• You’re Beautiful- James Blunt
  • This song has been over played so many times it’s ridiculous.
• Fireflies- Owl City
  • How many emotional preteen girls with black hair and black clothes cried over this song? Seriously, no one cares.
• ANY goddamned song by Nickleback.
  • They can kiss my ass. Get some creativity. Disappointment to Canada.
• 321-Hedley
  • Not all Canadian bands suck, but Hedley certainly does. As well as Simple Plan. Really, just every song by them is so whiney! Grow a pair and move on.

Things I’m incredibly bad at

• Precalculus
• Returning library books on time
• Being quiet
• Cleaning
• Ice skating
• Sports. All of them.
• Dancing
• Shopping
• Drawing
• Putting CD’s back in their cases
• Lane changing
• Being positive
• Having faith
• Putting up with people I don’t like

My typical, yet sometimes odd, bucket list.

• Be a published writer
  • Editorial in The Winnipeg Free Press
• Eat waffles in Belgium.
• Roll down the greenest hill in Ireland.
• Get married and have kids.
• Be able to financially support myself in every way doing something that I love.
• Walk down Abbey Road.
• Visit Jane Austen’s grave.
• Experience Mardy Gras in New Orleans.
• Visit Shakespeare’s Globe Theatre.
• Go to the Crayola Factory.
• Visit the Taj Mahal.
• Milk a cow.
• Visit the Great Wall of China
• Buy a house.
• Photograph: The Eiffel Tower
  • The Taj Mahal
  • The Nile
  • The Leaning Tower of Pisa
  • Elephants not in a zoo.
  • Big Ben
• Take a picture in every country.
• Write and publish a book.
• Read at least one book by the following authors :
  • Hemmingway
  • Shakespeare
  • Dickens
  • Tolstoi
  • Twain
• Learn to fence.
• Learn to play Chopin Nocturne Op.9 No.2 fully on piano
• Read The Bible from cover to cover
• Swim in Lake Superior
• Ride a horse.
• Receive an award.
  • Youth Community Service Award 2010
• Learn Portuguese and have a conversation with a relative in Portugal in Portuguese.
• Live to see Cancer completely curable.
• Be a healthy weight for my age/height and maintain it.
• Be unbiased in Switzerland
• Make Arroz Doce just like Avo did.
• Get high in Amsterdam
• Sponsor a child or buy a cow.
• Spend a whole day reading Jane Austen novels.
• Give to a charity, anonymously.
• Learn to juggle with 3 balls.
• Buy something from every store in Mall of America.
• Live like a local in an unfamiliar country for a month.
• Travel India by Train.
• Ride on a train.
• Tango in Argentina.
• Set foot on all 7 continents.
• Photograph an endangered species.
• Go to a music festival in another country.
• Travel to Germany and go to the Love Parade.
• Travel to Europe and go to Oktoberfest. (Beer!)
• Visit every capitol in Europe.
• Shake hands with the Dalai Lama.
• Visit the Great Pyramids of Egypt.
• Dive to see the Titanic.
• Go to Carnival in Rio.
• Explore the Galapagos Islands.
• Fall in love.
  • Donovan <3
• Punch someone in the face.
• Donate Blood.
  • (DONE:10/10/09)
• See a show on Broadway.
• Busk.
• Take a homeless person out for lunch.
  • (DONE: 09/21/09)
• Drive a Zambonie
• Find the perfect opportunity to say “RUN FORREST, RUN!”
  • (DONE: 07/01/2009)
• See a shuttle launch.
• Break 10 laws in one day.
• Hang my art in a gallery.
• Be in two places at once.
• Do a MENSA test
  • (DONE:11/14/09)
• Own a Mac.
  • (DONE: July 24/2010)
• Own a star.
• Enhale helium and sing like you’ve never sung before.
• Learn something new every day for a month.
• Fly in a hot air balloon
• Cut someones hair, nicely.
• Become a vegetarian for a day.
• Find my faith. Whether it be a religion or no religion at all.
• Ride on a gondola in Venice.
• Visit the Vatican.
• See the Mona Lisa at the Louvre
• Join a bowling team.
• Times Square on New Years.
• Visit the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York.
• Go to Disney World.
• Climb up the Statue of Liberty.
• Go on The London Eye.
• Join a Big Brother Big Sister program.
• Be an Extra in a movie.
• Watch The Godfather.
  • (DONE: 08/07/2010)
• Watch Casablanca.
  • (DONE: 11/14/09)
• Adopt a pet from an animal shelter.
• Go on Safari
• Visit the San Diego Zoo.
• Grow Orchids.
• Be a spectator at The Olympics.
• Visit Tibet.
• Go to the Kentucky Derby.
• Win something on the radio.
• Put a dollar away everyday for 365 days.
• Plant a tree on my birthday.
• Send my parents on a vacation.
• Crowd Surf.
• Carve my name into a tree.
• Scream as loud as I possibly can.
• Drive a motorcycle.
• Beat a game on the hardest difficulty.
• Go to Burning Man.
• Ride a bull.
• Be in a protest.
• Buy a pair of shoes for every child in a school in Africa.
• Fart in a huge crowd.
  • (DONE.August 17/09)
• Do something for someone every day for a month.
• Have a wish come true.
• Win a photography contest.
• Learn to use Nun chucks.
• Sell my art!
• Receive my high school diploma.
• Watch a foreign film
  • (DONE: August 19/09)

Petty annoyances that will get you the evil eye

I hate when people…

• Stand too close to me in line
• Sneeze without covering
• Say ‘Like’ a lot when they’re talking
• End a sentence with a preposition.
  • If someone says “Where’s the party at” that’s when you say “Where’s the party at, bitch.” Therefore not ending the sentence like that.
• Pretend to like things they don’t just to impress people
• Aren’t trustworthy
• Gossip
• Use the wrong version of “You’re” and “Your” or “Too”,”To”, and “Two”. Why do people have trouble with contractions?
• Gloat
• Only talk about themselves
• Are fake
• Get mad over stupid things
• Cut me off in traffic
• Sit next to me on the bus
• Say they’ll do something and then don’t do it.
• Don’t take the initiative
• Don’t know when to shut up
• Wear their pants so low that you can see their underwear ( Around these here parts we call ‘em “shit catchers”)

Things that suck

• TWILIGHT
• When computers run slowly
• Carrots
• Jay Leno
• Name brand Mac and Cheese
• Olives
• When the wire comes out of a bra
• Waiting for the next season of a TV show
• Sizing at stores
• Frizzy hair
• When waterproof make up doesn’t come off
• When waterproof make up comes off when you don’t want it to
• Being ditched
• Waiting until weekends to see my boyfriend
• Math
• Ticks
• Mosquitos
• Heavy backpacks
• Cold water showers
• Insomnia
• Being sad
• Being mad
• Not being able to move out
• Finding a job that I’ll actually like