This site is a collection of lists, thoughts, music, goals, and photos. I’m making no promises as to how interesting it will be, seeing as I am not the most interesting of people. But, if you’re reading this: Hello! I’m Chelsea and you’re awesome for reading this.
Life is crazy. Sometimes I forget how to deal with it. I forget to laugh at myself. I forget to feel anything other than the sadness that seems to consume my entire life. I have an amazing boyfriend who just wants me to feel better and to make me happy. It’s so hard to see him upset that he can’t “fix” anything. I’m trying so hard just to be normal and happy and enjoy my life, but it’s so hard. Waking up in the morning and actually doing something feels like a mountain I can’t climb. Sometimes I feel like the shell of a person. I don’t feel much except just plain sad. With everything my parents are going through, I feel like I have to be the strong one. I feel like I can’t show any emotion in front of them. Every time I come home from seeing them, I cry like a baby. It’s not fair. I wish I could take away my dad’s pain. I wish I could make him happy again. I wish I could just fix everything. It’s getting so hard not to cut. Well, hopefully I’ll write here soon again.. I don’t have anyone to talk to anymore so I’m sure I will.